Episode 2 - My social communication challenges

Episode 2 - My social communication challenges

Author: Toni January 1, 2026 Duration: 39:22
In this episode, I share the ways in which I experience the diagnostic criterion of social communication and interaction challenges.

Toni's Autistic at 40 is a personal audio journal exploring the nuanced reality of discovering one's autistic identity in midlife. This podcast moves through the intersecting categories of personal experience, mental health, and societal expectations, all filtered through a newly recognized neurodivergent perspective. Each episode is a process of unpacking-how a lifetime of experiences, from fitness routines to cultural interactions, suddenly shifts into a different, clearer focus. The narrative is intimate and specific, grounded in the host's own journey without attempting to speak for a broader community. You'll hear candid reflections on the practical and emotional recalibration required when the framework for your entire life changes in your fourth decade. It's about the quiet revelations and the loud, confusing pieces finally clicking into place. This isn't a guide or a manifesto, but a real-time chronicle of making sense of a self and a world viewed through an authentic, if recently understood, lens. For anyone navigating their own late identification or seeking to understand the complex layers of adult autism, this podcast offers a singular, thoughtful companion.
Author: Language: en-us Episodes: 6

Autistic at 40
Podcast Episodes
Episode 5 - Making sense of autism and trauma [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 51:57
In this episode, I share the sense I have made of my autism vs different types of trauma, including developmental trauma and cPTSD. I don't make references to specific traumatic incidents.
Episode 3 - My repetition and intensity [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 47:35
In this episode I describe the experience of having repetitive and intense interests and behaviours, and how they impact on my life and health.
Episode 4 - My wider common autistic traits [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 36:41
In this episode, I set out a number of wider traits common in autistic individuals and how I experience them. Including absolute thinking, sensory issues, monotropism, meltdowns, shutdowns, context blindness and alexythy…
Episode 1 - Rebooting Autistic at 40 [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 32:35
In this episode I share the reasons for unpublishing my original podcast episodes, and how I will be approaching the reboot in a different way.