45. what's underneath the floorboards

45. what's underneath the floorboards

Author: JJ Lang, Julia Rios December 23, 2025 Duration: 59:50

JJ talks about their year in chess that was and wasn't, which turns into a conversation with Julia about grief, loss, and self-knowledge. JJ references their essay on substack, which begins here: https://substack.com/home/post/p-180266870

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Hosted by chess teacher JJ Lang and therapist Julia Rios, chessfeels: conversations about chess, psychology & mental health explores the intricate human experience behind the sixty-four squares. This isn't a series of dry lectures on openings or endgames, though improvement naturally surfaces through their discussions. Instead, each episode delves into the psychological landscape of the game-the pressure of competition, the sting of a loss, the joy of a creative breakthrough, and the peculiar obsessions that come with playing. You'll hear candid, often irreverent conversations that connect the strategic demands of chess to broader themes of mental fitness and personal growth. Lang and Rios create a space where the culture surrounding the game, from online play to tournament hall anxieties, is examined with equal parts insight and empathy. By weaving together perspectives from dedicated teaching and therapeutic practice, this podcast offers a unique lens on how the challenges we face over the board mirror those we navigate in everyday life. Tuning in feels like sitting in on a fascinating discussion between two experts who are deeply passionate about understanding why we play and how it affects us, making every episode a thoughtful companion for anyone who has ever felt the emotional weight of a move.
Author: Language: English Episodes: 46

chessfeels: conversations about chess, psychology & mental health
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Duration: 48:53
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12: it's about time [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 57:53
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11: convince me! [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 51:19
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10: #chessgoals (or: the ceiling is the roof) [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 59:31
Julia and JJ meet up in person to talk about goal-setting, the assumptions that go into goal-setting, and what all of you are doing wrong.
9: the future of chess is trans (with Sam Sharf of New College) [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 56:44
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7: tilt, fizzle, and pop [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 46:07
JJ and Julia are not feeling it this week. And by 'it,' we mean playing chess. They take this opportunity to ask what the best way to overcome this fizzle is, and how this relates to related phenomena of burnout and tilt…
5: are you an aggressive player? or just a bad person? [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 48:39
Julia and JJ question whether there is a connection between an aggressive style of play over the board and aggressively alienating personalities off the board. And, even worse, can aggression still improve your chess eve…