I like to be choked and have my hair pulled - Candi

I like to be choked and have my hair pulled - Candi

Author: Leah Carey November 12, 2020 Duration: 55:07

Candi lives with Muscular Dystrophy. She shares how it progressed and how it changed her physical capabilities over her lifetime, and what it's like to date and to have sex with a visible disability. She also opens up about loving rough sex and BDSM, despite an appearance—and often others' assumption—of fragility.

  • Candi shares her first memory of sexual desire, a seemingly spontaneous discovery of masturbation in 9th She grew up in a conservative Christian family and sex was not discussed.
  • She talks about being flat-chested in high school, and being such a late bloomer that her mom never gave her the period talk and she only knew what was happening because of Sex Ed.
  • Candi stays a virgin until she's 22, influenced both by purity culture and fear of the unknown.
  • She meets a cute boy with a leg brace in a boring class and they bond. She boldly asks him out.
  • Her first sexual experience happens and leaves her feeling both curiosity and disappointment.
  • Candi explains her Muscular Dystrophy.
  • She reflects back to her first sexual experience through the lens of her disability and what the experience was like with her body.
  • She goes into her next sexual experience in a way would *never* repeat.
  • She opens up about the great sex she had, and the positions that managed it, with the random work guy she wasn't attracted to.
  • Liking aggressive sex is completely normal; also, be careful with choking.
  • Candi meets a guy on a dating app, and after an interesting first meeting, he introduces her to BDSM and blows her mind.
  • She opens up about how hard it is to watch able people enjoy romantic and life milestones that seem to pass her by despite her competence and energy.

 

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EPISODE CREDITS:

Host / Producer – Leah Carey (email)
Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby
Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco

Transcript creation – Jan Acielo
Music – Nazar Rybak

 


Leah Carey's Good Girls Talk About Sex is built on a simple, powerful premise: honest, unfiltered conversation. As a Sex and Intimacy Coach, Leah guides discussions that feel less like interviews and more like the kind of intimate, revealing talk you'd share with a close friend. Each episode features women from an incredibly wide spectrum of life-differing in size, shape, age, orientation, and cultural or religious background. The stories include those from people raised as girls and transgender women, exploring a full range of relationship structures and levels of kink. What you'll hear are personal narratives about sexuality that are often left unspoken, shared without judgment. This podcast moves beyond theory into the lived, human experience, creating a rare space where complexity is welcomed and authenticity is the only rule. Tuning in means listening to voices that are frequently marginalized, finding common ground in unexpected places, and perhaps understanding your own story a little better through the generous sharing of others.
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