I was assaulted by my yoga guru - Charlotte

I was assaulted by my yoga guru - Charlotte

Author: Leah Carey April 1, 2021 Duration: 52:40

Charlotte's sexual journey has taken the deep bends—and openings—of the yoga she practices. She met her husband in a guru community, fled it, had two daughters, reclaimed her body, and is now exploring "high-fidelity" polyamory in several configurations.

Charlotte is a 45-year-old cisgender female. She describes herself as white, and perimenopausal with an athletic body. Her sexual orientation and preferred relationship style are under exploration, and her current relationship status is "exploring."

  • Charlotte shares her first experience of sexual pleasure, at age 18. She talks about arousal and masturbation and exploration occurring before then, but not to the level of real pleasure.
  • Charlotte grew up Catholic, with very little family PDA, and the most basic Sex Ed. "None of the juicy stuff."
  • She meets the father of her children in a yoga community and has to keep the relationship a secret as they travel the world with their guru. They are forced to leave, quickly marry, and have two daughters.
  • Charlotte opens up about sexual violation at the hands of the guru as part of the "spiritual path" she was expected to be on. She struggles for three years before it starts outweighing the good of the mission she believed in.
  • She and her husband leave the community together and set up house. Pregnancy, motherhood, and breastfeeding take over her body and sex becomes a marital duty.
  • She finds herself alone for the first time in 10 years when her husband takes the girls on a trip. She reunites with a college friend…with benefits.
  • Charlotte talks about her current exploratory dating, Her sexual orientation and relationship styles vary at the moment, and include being in a non-monogamous "high-fidelity polyamory" with a super communicative yoga dude and being the girlfriend of a married couple.
  • After spending time digging into and undoing her wounds, she is literally bathed in new love.
  • A friend of a friend overhears Charlotte talking about her escapades at a party, and contacts her afterward to ask if she'll have sex with her husband. He turns out to be hot enough to make her nervous.
  • Charlotte looks to the future and potentially partnering up monogamously again, as well as further pushing her sexual boundaries.

 

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EPISODE CREDITS:

Host / Producer – Leah Carey (email)
Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby
Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco

Transcript creation – Jan Acielo
Music – Nazar Rybak

 


Leah Carey's Good Girls Talk About Sex is built on a simple, powerful premise: honest, unfiltered conversation. As a Sex and Intimacy Coach, Leah guides discussions that feel less like interviews and more like the kind of intimate, revealing talk you'd share with a close friend. Each episode features women from an incredibly wide spectrum of life-differing in size, shape, age, orientation, and cultural or religious background. The stories include those from people raised as girls and transgender women, exploring a full range of relationship structures and levels of kink. What you'll hear are personal narratives about sexuality that are often left unspoken, shared without judgment. This podcast moves beyond theory into the lived, human experience, creating a rare space where complexity is welcomed and authenticity is the only rule. Tuning in means listening to voices that are frequently marginalized, finding common ground in unexpected places, and perhaps understanding your own story a little better through the generous sharing of others.
Author: Language: English Episodes: 100

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