Somewhere Else: Dissociation, Autopilot and the Years We Spent Watching Our Own Lives

Somewhere Else: Dissociation, Autopilot and the Years We Spent Watching Our Own Lives

Author: Toby & Rudy July 9, 2026 Duration: 1:18:43
There's a version of being gone that nobody can see. You're in the room. You're answering the questions. You're driving the car, making the dinner, having the conversation. But you're not there. You're watching it happen from somewhere behind your own eyes. In episode 13 of More, Toby and Rudy get into dissociation. What it actually is, where it comes from, and what it's like to spend most of your life watching yourself from a distance. This is one they both have deep lived experience of, and...

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Toby's Story - Part One [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 1:07:34
Toby is one of your hosts, in this episode you will hear about him and his life experiences, from childhood to present day. Get in touch, we would love to hear from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com Of waves and war - netflix…
The Beginning [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 53:50
This is More, a podcast hosted by people with lived experience of addiction, mental health issues, trauma, and neurodiversity. Where the pursuit of more led us to rock bottom and has since led us to finding alternative w…