Stuck in the Blue

Tushil Jariwala

i remember that weekend — the lilac sky,

how i smiled at the stars while learning goodbye.

i gave you my laughter, my voice, my youth,

and you gave me silence, disguised as truth.

i thought we were different — the kind that last,

but some fairytales burn out too fast.

you called it timing, i called it fate,

you called me lovely — and walked away late.

i’m stuck in the blue, where the quiet won't break,

where your name is a whisper the moonlight still makes.

i painted you golden, but you stayed untrue,

you never loved me — but god, i loved you.

oh, i’m stuck in the blue...

still stuck in the blue.

i stood by your side when the world turned cold,

hid every bruise in petals i’d fold.

i sang you lullabies nobody heard,

and you left me hanging on unfinished words.

they asked what happened — i smiled, said fine,

but carried your ghost through every line.

you ran from the mess that your hands had made,

and left me with echoes that never fade.

i’m stuck in the blue, where the shadows dance,

where the heart still waits for a second chance.

i gave you a storm wrapped in skies so new,

you gave me the rain — and i called it you.

oh, i’m stuck in the blue...

so endlessly blue.

do you remember the girl who believed in stars?

who kissed your wounds and hid her scars?

i still write poems with your old name,

but now the ink don’t bleed the same.

i’m stuck in the blue, where the soft songs ache,

where your ghost still smiles in every heartbreak.

i held you in ways the world never knew,

you never loved me — but i always do.

and i’m stuck in the blue...

forever in the blue. 

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