Opening Up About My Past Marriage 10 Years Later…

Opening Up About My Past Marriage 10 Years Later…

Author: Jeanine Amapola September 15, 2026 Duration: 1:11:21
Ten years later, I’m finally ready to share a part of my story that I’ve carried quietly for a long time: my past marriage and annulment. In this episode, I’m opening up about being 21, feeling isolated and unsure of myself, and finding myself in a toxic relationship that ultimately led me to make decisions I never thought I would make. I share about the pressure, shame, fear, loss of purity, and secrecy I carried—and how those things kept me stuck far longer than I should have been. But I more importantly want to highlight how God met me in one of the darkest seasons of my life, how my family, friends, counseling, and community helped me find the courage to leave, and how Jesus slowly freed me from the shame I thought would define me forever. If you’ve ever felt like your past disqualifies you, like you’ve messed up too badly, or like you’re trapped in a relationship you know isn’t healthy, I hope my story reminds you that you are never too far gone. There is freedom. There is healing. There are second chances. And your worst decision does not have to become your identity. God really can make beauty from ashes, and I’m so grateful I get to look back 10 years later and see just how much He has redeemed. In This Episode 05:35 How the Relationship Started 12:30 The Red Flags I Ignored 17:15 Our Breakup & the Decision I Regret 23:00 Shame, Purity & Feeling Trapped 29:35 How I Was Pressured Into Marriage 33:00 I Immediately Knew I Made a Mistake 38:45 Telling My Family & Getting Out 42:15 The Annulment & Leaving the Relationship 55:30 How God Healed & Redeemed My Story Thanks to Our Sponsors Better Help: This episode is sponsored by Better Help. Visit betterhelp.com/happyhealthy to learn more and see if BetterHelp is the right fit for you. Osea: visit oseamalibu.com and use code HEALTHY for 10% off your order Grand Canyon University: Visit ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠GCU.edu⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to learn more. Wayfair: Every style. Every Place. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Wayfair.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ SEEDS: ⁠⁠Download the free SEEDS app⁠⁠ and take one small step today: plant your first seed and see what God can grow. If you’d like to partner with Jeanine as a sponsor for the Happy & Healthy podcast, fill out our ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Advertise With Us⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ form! Follow us on Instagram!⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Happy and Healthy⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Jeanine⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Jeanine and Kaleb⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Follow us on TikTok! ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Happy and Healthy⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Jeanine⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Jeanine Amapola has built a life around sharing real stories and practical wisdom, and now she’s bringing that same warm, conversational energy to Happy & Healthy with Jeanine Amapola. As a Texas-born creator and author with a community of millions, Jeanine knows that genuine growth happens at the intersection of faith, culture, and everyday life. In this podcast, you’ll find candid discussions that feel like a coffee chat with a thoughtful friend, covering everything from personal faith and spiritual practices to navigating modern relationships and societal pressures. The conversations are rooted in a Christian perspective but are designed for anyone interested in building a more intentional and joyful life. You’ll hear Jeanine’s own experiences, lessons learned from both stumbles and successes, and insights on how to cultivate resilience and purpose. It’s more than just advice; it’s about finding a healthier mindset and a happier heart through authentic connection. Tune in for a space where self-improvement meets spirituality, all explored with Jeanine’s characteristic positivity and honesty.
Author: Language: English Episodes: 50

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Podcast Episodes
Judging People & God’s Grace on Our Sin | Faith Friday Ep. 9 [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 39:10
Let's talk about the most recent Carl Lentz podcast... and judging people, condemnation feeling shame, the gift of tongues, and God's all consuming love! We are diving in Romans 8 today. Would love your thoughts on wheth…
My Husband Confronts His Ex-Pastor Carl Lentz from Hillsong Church [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 1:36:46
We sit down with Carl Lentz, ex-Hillsong pastor, and we didn’t feel like we were talking to a “celebrity pastor” or someone from headlines—It felt like we were talking to a real human being who has walked through the fir…
Why You Keep Doing What You Hate Doing... | Faith Friday Ep. 8 [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 37:45
If you’ve ever said, “This is the last time”… and then found yourself right back in the same place—this episode is for you! In Romans 7, Paul puts words to a struggle we all feel but rarely talk about:doing the very thin…
Fasting and Dying to Self | Faith Friday Ep. 7 [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 37:59
Welcome back!! Today we are diving into Romans 6 and talking about what it means to be baptized, dying to self, and fasting and praying! I hope you have fun listening to this and hanging out with me :) See you soon! Buy…
Q&A: Baby #2, Candace Owens, Leaving OKC & Law School Struggles [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 51:12
Marriage, babies, law school, internet drama… we really said “let’s cover everything” in this one. 😂 Kaleb and I sat down and answered your questions about baby #2 (which we genuinely don’t have a clear answer on), wheth…