S2.03 - Is Jealousy a Sign From God?

S2.03 - Is Jealousy a Sign From God?

Author: Laura Farhy August 16, 2026 Duration: 20:00
The church told you jealousy is a sin to be confessed and buried. But what if it's actually one of the most honest prayers you'll ever pray? Jealousy doesn't lie. It tells you exactly what you want, and exactly what you don't believe you're allowed to have. And when you stop trying to kill it and start getting curious about it, it becomes one of the most powerful tools for spiritual growth you've never been taught to use. In this episode, Laura shares a personal story about sitting across from a woman living the life she wanted, and the spiral of comparison, self-doubt, and buried belief that followed. Instead of letting it consume her, she used it. And what she discovered changed her prayer life, her self-perception, and her relationship with God. You'll learn how to decode the beliefs hiding inside your jealousy, why Brené Brown calls it "fear in disguise," how to use it as a mirror instead of a weapon, and how God used a baby gate and a dog to show Laura something she'd been missing about her own life. Jealousy isn't a sickness. It's a symptom , and it's pointing you somewhere important. This episode shows you where.   #faithcrisis #spiritualcrisis #doubtisnottheenemy #leavingchurch #churchtrauma #religioustrauma #deconstruction

In a landscape where many feel spiritually uprooted, Spiritually Homesteading | How to Lose Your Religion & Keep Your Jesus offers a different path. Hosted by Laura Farhy, this podcast moves beyond the familiar terrain of deconstruction to focus on the practical, often messy work of rebuilding a personal faith. It’s built on the metaphor of homesteading-the idea that a deep, sustainable spiritual life requires getting your hands dirty, planting seeds of curiosity, and tending to your own beliefs with intention. This space is specifically for those who feel disillusioned or wounded by institutional religion yet still feel a pull toward the essence of Jesus. Each episode is a conversation for the spiritually curious and hopeful, exploring how to separate cultural dogma from core spiritual truth. When you listen to this podcast, you’ll find honest discussions about navigating doubt, reclaiming personal agency in faith, and discovering what it means to cultivate a belief system that is genuinely your own. It’s about empowerment and ownership, creating a spiritual home from the ground up.
Author: Language: English Episodes: 50

Spiritually Homesteading | How to Lose Your Religion & Keep Your Jesus
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Duration: 13:38
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S2.04 - Why Every Christian Needs to Learn to Disciple Themselves [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 21:38
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S1.52 - After Deconstruction, Only 3 Things Remained [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 12:56
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S1.51 - Why You Should Write Your Own Bible (No, Really!) [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 7:27
Your Story With God Deserves to Be Written Down... so let's record it and make it count. We often forget that God exists outside the Bible and inside your life. LET's talk about that.
S1.50 - How to Reconstruct Your Faith After Deconstruction [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 6:46
After a decade of a deconstruction, I finally rebuilt my faith and this is what I did to do it. The best part is... my faith is more secure than it was before. I want to do the same for you.
S1.49 - Should You Quit the Bible? Here's Why I Changed My Mind [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 6:17
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