I'm the Hell

I'm the Hell

Author: How to Survive the End of the World May 30, 2025 Duration: 1:03:18

The sisters convene to consider the realizion that aging means being in grief all the time but continuing, nonetheless, writing in the bath, taking responsibility for our inner state, the free Chani Breakthrough Course, the dream job of being a backup vocalist, political youth theatre, awesome kids learning from awesome parents, conflicted perpetrators and the sisters' personal journey on that pathway, 9/11, what it means to be an American, the disorientation and nausea of "What the hell? I'm the hell!", leaving cults when you realized it all made sense till it didn't, how Robin Hood triggered anti-authoritarianism, the rich history of student organizing at Columbia, the normalization of being at the top of a military superpower, the big question of 'is anything real?', having a different kind of conversation with your parents, sitting with the ocean, the cult of purity, fugitive resistance as a way of resisting the ideology of the state, figuring out how to not shop on Amazon, moving from cult to cult, needing a new belief system, and how solidarity is the only salve once you recognize that you're in the perpetrator role.

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Sisters Autumn Brown and adrienne maree brown host How to Survive the End of the World, a podcast rooted in their shared lives as writers, activists, and facilitators shaped by multiracial diasporic lineages. This isn't a theoretical discussion about distant catastrophes; it's a direct, grounded conversation about the endings we are all already living through-the collapse of systems, the death of old ways, and the personal transformations that feel like worlds dissolving. Each episode delves into the tangible, often messy practices a community needs to navigate these ruptures. You'll hear them explore how we grieve, how we organize, how we imagine futures, and how we find wholeness even as things fall apart. The dialogue is intimate and urgent, moving from the kitchen table to the front lines of social change, always asking what it means to survive with integrity and connection. This podcast operates from the belief that learning to face endings together is the first, most necessary step toward building something new. For more from Autumn and adrienne, find them at endoftheworldshow.org.
Author: Language: English Episodes: 100

How to Survive the End of the World
Podcast Episodes
It's All Holy and it's All Ridiculous with The Bengsons [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 1:01:53
Abigail and Shaun Bengson are a married composing and performing duo raising two children in NYC and Vermont. Abigail was previously on the show in 2023 during our Witch Season. In this raucous and tender convo, The Beng…
Landscapes of Reactivity, an Epic Ask Us Anything! [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 1:12:18
Hey hey hey, it's a sister-sister AMA! Today on the show, adrienne and Autumn answer questions from our Patreon supporters. To access exclusive content and ask your own questions for future AMA episodes, become a BELOVED…
Hot and Vibrant for the Apocalypse with Denée Benton [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 1:00:21
Denée Benton (Eliza Hamilton in Hamilton! Cinderella in Into the Woods! Peggy Scott on The Gilded Age!) joins the sisters Brown to explore how creative work can serve social movements, the importance of community rituals…
If hope is a muscle, then how do I build it? [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 30:32
Autumn is hosting another show and you're gonna love it! In the Season Four premiere of the Climate Changed podcast, Autumn talks with Tory Stephens, a storyteller, cultural worker, and climate justice advocate.They expl…
Write The Next World With Us [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 1:06:02
adrienne and Autumn are joined by Kate McCabe (Founder and Executive Director of Bog & Thunder), Max Sussman (Culinary Director of Bog & Thunder) and Dwight Dunston (facilitator, hip-hop artist, educator, and activist) t…
Moving Toward the Horizon of Love Together with Sonya Renee Taylor [not-audio_url] [/not-audio_url]

Duration: 1:00:31
Originally recorded on IG live, adrienne and her friend, the author, activist and artist Sonya Renee Taylor process being a survivor in these times. Loving shouts to Tarana Burke for all the portal opening and Amanda Doy…